The Book of Thoughts

Today is Sunday, and I feel like I should post something.

I have recently bought an adorable little notebook (it's green!) that I will henceforth refer to as the Book of Thoughts. I intend to write random thoughts that strike me as particularly clever at the moment in there, so it will be a collection of my own rubbish wisdom about life, quotes I like, and just realizations I've had and I think are worth writing down.

I also have a (or rather many) book of ideas, in which I write story ideas. I don't really have a diary anymore, but I used to have one in my early teen years. I wonder sometimes if I will regret it later in life that I didn't keep a diary because memories tend to get lost, and a diary is one way of keeping them... but I never was very good at writing about my life. It all just seemed so insignificant. No, scratch that, I should say it all seems so insignificant, present tense.

And anyway, I've got a blog now, blogs are cool. (Not what I meant to say, but couldn't help it.) I've got a blog now, which is sort of like a diary. Although admittedly, I don't really post that much about my life here... because it is all BORING INSIGNIFICANCE.

*cries tears of unimportance*

Not really. I'm rather content with my life. And I'll leave you on that cheerful note.

The Post-Exam Post (Oh yeah, I just did that.)

So now that exam craziness is (albeit temporarily) over, I think I should do something productive. If I don't give myself a clear task, I'll just waste away in front of my laptop and watch youtube videos all day, while occasionally checking on twitter and concluding everything with an epically lame blog post. Yeah, I'm just lazy like that. And very fond of doing nothing all day, thank you very much.

So, what is it that I could fit into my everyday life every day? I have two ideas, and I think I'm just gonna do both. I have decided that after a very long break (never got past my post Harry Potter depression... not really) I will take up reading again. I do want to start studying English literature in the fall, so I'd better be prepared, or something.

Also, writing a book has always been one of my goals in life. And I've got tons of ideas (well, no, that was an exaggeration, but I do have a few ideas) but I never really get them down on paper due to overthinking/underplanning. So I will try and write a bit every day from now on. I could resurrect my old NaNo project... Hmm...

So that's it for today (well, tonight, really) and I'll see you next time.

(Yep, definitely watched too many vlog-y videos today. That sign off was so youtube-ish.)

(And what's it with adding random endings to nouns in order to make them adjectives? Adjectives will one day take over the world.)

(And what's it with putting stuff in brackets?)

(Yeah, Marlin, you should really stop that.)

Great, I'm talking to myself again. I think I'm in need of a friend. Or a roommate. Or a friendly roommate. Or a roommate-y friend. Best case scenario: I end up with a roommate who is also my friend. Reality: I end up with neither.

The Pre-Exam Post

Ah, yes, the blog. I keep forgetting about this, but then I suddenly need a place to rant or get rid of some random thoughts that keep me from concentrating on more important things... and that's when I come back here. Not that random thoughts are unimportant, but they don't further my academic career very much, as opposed to, let's say, studying. And random thoughts happen to be the perfect concentration prohibiters. (Or is it prohibitors? Is that even a word? My mind has gone fuzzy with all the Latin vocabulary I've been forcing into it as of late.)

Yes, so, you might have noticed an undercurrent theme to this post. Yes, it is studying. Got my Latin exam tomorrow, and I'm actually so nervous that I'm feeling slightly sick. Never had this before. It is an all new (and unpleasant) experience. In fact, I should be cramming some more information into my head right now, but I just need a break. I need to breathe, walk around a bit, look out the window... and then battle on!

I am a rather ambitious person, and I expect a lot of myself, which leads to a lot of pressure. It's not exactly good for my body, apparently, because I've been battling with a sore throats and headaches, and now nervousness/sickness. But the headaches were probably due to a lack of sleep. (I almost wrote "sleep of lack" here. Which sort of proves that my brain has definitely reached "mildly clouded" on a scale from "clear" to "fuzzy".)

Yeah, just ranting. I don't like exams. I become a wreck before exams. I usually pass them without too many problems, but I just get nervous. Not during the exam, but before. During the exam, I usually enter a stage of odd calm and extreme concentration. (I'm not so sure that the noun "concentration" can be described with the adjective "extreme" right now...)

This post will take no end if I don't forcibly end it. I could keep on ranting and talking in circles and writing phrases that I'm not sure are correct English and then wonder out loud (or, well, in writing) whether they work or not. So I'm gonna end this forcibly.

(As in now, Marlin!)

(Okay, I'm going.)

The... I-don't-know-what-to-call-this-Post

I don't like picking up the telephone because that puts me in a situation where I have to make reasonable conversation with strangers.

Also, I realized I really can't do Script Frenzy because I'm close to failing my Latin exam, which I want to avoid at all costs. But for the short time I was resolved to do Script Frenzy I realized that writing scripts is actually kind of awesome. It's almost like jotting down notes. You don't have to be all that specific about description and setting, you can just write dialogue, and then the occasional cool shot that's been stuck in your head... Well, I probably wasn't doing it right, but the way I was doing it actually made me write faster than when I'm trying to write an actual novel.

So maybe I should do first drafts in script form from now on.

I want to go to London. Like, soon. That's always been a dream of mine, but I'm afraid I'm stuck here for at least a year and a half longer. The prospect of moving to a foreign country for six months is kinda scary, but also very alluring. Just being free of everyone and everything that surrounds me all the time here... yeah, sounds pretty awesome to me.

The Rash Decision

Oh, hey blog. Almost forgot about you.

Today I decided to do something incredibly stupid. Well, not decided, really. It was more of an impulsive reaction. Just couldn't help it.

I signed up for Script Frenzy.

There, I said it.

Now, let me tell you why that is a little crazy and incredibly stupid of me. One, it's already April 1st, so I have no time for planning whatsoever. I just have to pull an idea out of my hat, I guess. The problem is, I'm not wearing a hat. In fact, I'm not a hat person.

Two, I have my Latin exam on the 20th of April, and I really should be studying my ass off for that. Also, I just realized that it would be incredibly cool if I could literally study my ass off (well, not all of it) because I've definitely gained some weight during winter. But now that the winter clothes are coming off, it's not looking so flattering anymore.

Three, I've never written a script before in my life. I considered going rogue and just writing a one hundred page novel/novella instead of a script, or maybe I'll just do a collection of things like some parts of a script, and parts of a story...

Now, there's also a reason why signing up is a good thing. Because it gets me writing. And I want to write, but I need a deadline hanging over my head or those fingers of mine won't get typing.

Happy April, guys :)